This is what I have known

Since the beginning

No safety

The child knew it

Afraid to go out and play

To make friends who could be lost

The adult woman lived with it too

Afraid of every single moment ahead

She never wanted to know the future

It was dark

She knew she would remain alone and afraid

With no support

She will lose her house

And her job

And the worst fear of all

She would lose him

The only one on whom her life really depended.

She lived with the fear in her soul

Hidden behind small worries

Of aging, gaining weight, making money,

Being happy.

The fear would be only acknowledged

In difficult moments

Of sickness of despair

Whenever he was late

And didn't call

Then It would come to the surface

Jumping like a small child

Happy to be again needed.

She cursed the flesh eating fear

And asked It to leave

We cannot escape what we fear the most.

Is the Universe listening to us

Only when we derail?

What about when we pray on bloody knees

For something to be saved,

Is there anybody listening then?