It is hard to come back to the blog after such a long absence. But I never really meant to abandon it. It just happened that I didn’t have the time or the enthusiasm for it for a while. I still am entranced by the work of other bloggers and I know that returning here is happening, if slowly and tentatively at first.
I always miss the blog when I don’t write here long enough. As a self-published writer I consider it my job to work on my online presence, but maybe that’s sucking out the soul out of my blogging. Maybe I’d feel more relaxed about it if I just let it be whatever it wants to be, and stop thinking about it too much. Or maybe, on the contrary, I should put more thought and more planning into it? Right. I’m very close to a resolution here. Maybe in a few more years…
Meanwhile, I’ve been spending my time with web design, technical writing, and my family, and unfortunately not much was left for creative writing. I know I could make the time if I really set to it, but somehow it doesn’t happen. It always gets pushed back, behind other priorities, of which there will always be many, of course.
I’ve also been putting a lot of effort to return to a manageable weight that doesn’t affect my health and at which I feel more like myself. It’s been a long journey. I lost a lot of weight by following a very low calorie diet (600 calories for two months, then about 800 – 900) with foods that I like but are not too highly caloric. It’s the only thing that’s ever worked for me (although intermittent fasting also worked for a little while at some point, two years ago). So I consider that a sort of achievement, although of course it remains to be seen if I can keep the weight off and even lose the few more pounds until I get to my “ideal” weight.
This year looks like it’s going to be all about finishing my certificate, putting the smaller one in preschool and getting some paying work, so I don’t know how writing will fit in there this year either. Somehow I have to finish Eye, though, cause if it doesn’t happen this year, I’m afraid it will never happen. And I can’t really let all that work go to waste. It’s not a bad book this one. I think it deserves two more weeks of dedicated attention to reach a stage where it can be submitted to agents. I think that’s all it needs. Let’s see how I find that time. I’m as curious as you are. (I know you couldn’t care less, but let’s all be civil here. Thanks a bunch!)